Eneshe’s current reading

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Am reading this. Ayah which mean Father. Will write some review on it soon. Probably after i finish all my case trials. When there is a big free time and less busy.

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ENESHE’s hiking list.

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These are some views sent by my friend during his visit to Everest Base Camp (EBC). He knows I am super duper excited to know about Mt. Everest. Although I just a small hiker, who doesn’t so ambitious, I still keep a list to go at least to EBC. Some day, maybe.

Dream big.

The day will come.

Thank you, Vee!

DILEMMA

Become a writer is my dream from my childhood.  I have lots of fantasies and ideas. I like to create my own world from my imaginary thought, where people can’t question why things become this, why it’s like that, this is not logic, etc. Nevertheless, I’m quite scared to start any of my stories either. At the same time, there is also an idea to write an educational book, but this also requires some research and lastly end up I did nothing for it.

Now I am pursuing my studies in law and I started to think about doing a dissertation in psychology studies.  My god, too many things to do but I can’t commit to any of it. Sometimes I feel like I’m giving up to be a lawyer though.

 

ENESHE sending the Eid-Fitri Card for the year 2017.

After sending a few greeting cards for Eid-Fitri last week, there are few people texted me via WhatsApp and also commented on my Instagram asking why I didn’t send them the card. On the first batch of sending those Eid-Fitri cards, I sent to those who I have their addresses on my record. Apparently, it brings disappointment among of my friends who do not receive any card from me.

Despite being so choosy, I politely asked their addresses and some of them responded by giving their addresses. Later on, I keep thinking this will not going to end. There will be some other friends who will ask why they don’t receive the Eid-Fitri card from me as well. At last, I came to a conclusion I have to make something and send the Eid-Fitri cards as many as I can to whoever need it from me. I made a few announcements on my Instagram, Facebook and Twitter to whoever need the Eid-Fitri card from me, kindly message me your address. At first, I think there will be less than 5 people who will respond to my announcement since I am not very popular in social media but surprisingly I got a lot of request for Eid-Fitri card and they are sending me their addresses.

Good to see that because the main reason I sent the card to a few of my close friends just because I want to bring back the memories when I was a kid where we will send out all the kad raya (Eid-Fitri card) to our friends and we will exchange it. Since now everything is taking over by the technology where people sending the e-card or SMS or WhatsApp text in greeting and wishing for the Eid. Glad that I really make it, to bring back the tradition and most of my friends are supportive and responsive. Now, as at to-date, I’m closing my 2nd batch of Eid-Fitri card for the year of 2017.

If there is any request (together with the address) from my pen-pals or postcrossing friends or maybe here for the Eid-Fitri card, I will consider in opening the 3rd batch of Eid-Fitri card provided that the request must be made before 20/06/2017 because I will start my Eid-Fitri leave on 21/06/2017. Happy fasting to all Muslim.

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sabarkan hati

Sabar.

Mudah untuk mengungkap, tapi bila mana nak praktikkan sabar itu susah sangat.

Kadang, bila selalu dipijak sabar kian hilang.

Bilamana orang cakap :

“Sabar ada hadnya”.

Maaf, saya kurang setuju.

Sekiranya sabar ada had, itu sudah bukan sabar dah.

Sabar tiada had.

Sungguh.

Kita ada akal untuk pertimbang baik buruk sesuatu.

Bersabarlah.

Istighfar.

Sekiranya rasa sabar kian hilang, buat langkah yang wajar, yang tidak menyakiti hati sesiapa.

Berlalulah dari tempat itu seketika.

Ambil whuduk, solatlah dan mohon doa agar diberikan kesabaran.

Ulang tahun

Bertahun menyepikan diri dari penulisan.

Semangat seakan rapuh 3-4 tahun kebelakangan ini.

Terlalu banyak perkara yang jadi, dan semua itu pengalaman dan kenangan.

Kembali menulis membuatkan hati rasa seribu satu macam.

Teringat kesemua perkara-perkara terjadi, jatuh bangun, gembira, sedih, suka, duka dan segala-gala yang telah berlalu.

Ketika menjadi perhatian ramai, ketika jatuh tenggelam, waktu kegelapan dan masa-masa yang diambil untuk mengutip kembali hati dan bangun serta terus melangkah ke hadapan walaupun payah dan perlahan tetapi tetap maju.

Tipulah katakan tidak pernah menoleh ke belakang.

Kuat mana pun hati dan semangat dalam jiwa, ada masa terdetik untuk berhenti dan melihat apa yang telah ditinggalkan.

Dan pesanan emak sentiasa dipegang.

“NSH, setiap apa yang jadi ni, nak buat NSH lagi kuat, sebab sekarang NSH sebenarnya tak kuat.

Sebab tu Allah bagi macam-macam.

Nak NSH belajar, latihkan diri. Ni baru je sikit. Nanti makin meningkat usia, kerja lagi banyak, bila dah kahwin, lagi macam-mcam NSH kena hadap.”

Itu pesanan emak tiap kali bercakap di telefon.

Dan waktu dengar, memang rasa memberontak.

Di mulut cakap faham, tapi hati tetap menidakkan.

Tapi tak apa, ambillah sebanyak mana masa untuk fahamkan semuanya.

Setiap orang berbeza tahap penerimaannya.

Cuma yang penting, jangan pernah mengalah.

Sungguh, rasa bersyukur tak terhingga, kerana ketika diri ini melangkah dalam payah, keluarga dan kawan-kawan sentiasa ada.

Sentiasa.

Terima kasih tak terhingga.

Terutama untuk mak dan ayah. 

Terlalu memahami.

Terlalu yang terlalu.

Terima kasih, semua.

 

Selamat ulang tahun kepada yang menyambutnya hari ini.